It's just kind of funny though because other mothers like me who have a 5-month-old baby were staying awake during the night because their babies won't let them go to their happy land, but me, I stayed wide awake because of the Filipino Channel...My hubby thinks I'm so funny. I just make sure that I won't wake him up during the night since he goes to work so freakin' early everyday.
Today is just a boring day for me. I've done all my chores and there's just nothing to do. It's cold out about 28 degrees F out and who wants to get cold. I thought, winter will be over since we were blessed to have a week of sunny day. As in the snow melted all the way. The roads were totally bare from snow and it's just an amazing sight not to see any white at all. I still hate snow, I hate winter. Thick clothes, thick coats, boots and just everything to keep me warm. It's so heavy and I really hated it. I just can't wait for the day to come and would make me say..."Thank God it's summer!!!"...
On the other hand, it makes me happy to see my BBBox almost full. I can't wait to send it to the Philippines next month. There's a lot of things that I am still thinking to get but if I can't though, there's always the next time. Anyways, we will be going back next year. And also, I still have another extra box kept at the storage to be ship anytime.
I missed Philippines so bad. Missed the humidity, missed the people, missed everything. I mean, other people would say, how lucky Filipinas to get here in the United States. To be honest, I never had any plans of going here or marry an American. It's just maybe, it's my destiny. I mean, it is also my choice by all means but the choice I made led me to my destiny. Maybe it's just it. It's God's will, and I make it happen.
Well, I'm blessed with beautiful kids. Motherhood indeed is such a beautiful thing. I used to be the one asking for something to eat, clothes to wear, and toys to play. But now, when I hear my boy asking me for something, it's the best thing that a mother will ever feel that you can give your kid something that you can give. It's like they depend on you for everything. And when they look at you on your eyes and say "I love you Mama", it feels like your heart will stop beating and all you can do is pick them up and hug them as tightly as you can. That's why I just couldn't stop crying last night when I remembered my Mom. I missed her so bad. It's not going to be long, I will see her again!